Crawling on all fours, horse-like who maybe was injured in a mighty war or fell down running a cowards way out, I don’t know; I pick up my crushed ambitions, shattered pieces of my glass soul-piece by piece, careful of the sharp edges I gather them all. That mountain size heap scares me more than the lumbering ghosts of regrets and paths not taken. The view forward is blocked with my unshed tears and crumbling determination. I feel like I should give up.
I wish to give up and be free of this heaving burden of dreams, my dreams I am carrying. But the fear of sinking back into the black hole from where I pulled myself out, dawns on me and I panic. The anxiety and horror are too much to bear. I see a tiny light seeping through the cracked hole of the dump pile I created. And I remember. I remember why I strapped myself with this impossible task. Because moving back or stopping was never an option.
So I glue my determination back and staple the leaks, banish my demons and through that blinding pain I walk. I walk forward. The mountain that loomed above me before, seems like just a pointy stone my feet needs to bleed on. And I bleed. But soon I stitch myself and move. Forward. To my next mountain. For my next bleed. There is still a lot of blood left and a lot of experience (of stitching myself back together) under my hat. I am all set and I will not stop till I bleed my last.
My New Year Resolution is just to bleed. Bleed and keep moving. What’s yours?
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Still love this one; your determination inspires me.
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Thank you. It is what keeps me going.
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Wow! Vivid…
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Thank you 🙂
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My favourite work of yours.
The way you take pauses after describing a happening and make a repetition of words make an emphasis on what you are about to do next. I love that style.
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‘Shukriya'(thanks) 💖💖
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happy new year! best of luck for your resolution
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happy new year!
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Happy New Year!!
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I am all set and I will not stop till I bleed my last. 😍😍😍 Yaaaaaas… Hahaha. I hadn’t thought of one, but not stopping until I reach my full potential sure sounds like the best resolution yet. Bearing the discomfort, seeing how much it drains you but still keeping the eye on the prize until you get it. Very well said Shikha 👏
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You interpreted it very well Eli. And its a job not done easy. I really hope I do it well.
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Don’t worry, you will… I’m going to be giving it a try as well so I pray we both do 😀
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Amen.
It’s better to do it together than do it alone.:P
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True that 😉
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Inspiring!!! A fantastic read!! Loved it.. thanks for sharing!☺️
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Thank you for reading!
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Love it. 💕
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Thanks Angel! :))
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Love your metaphors and your courage.
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Thank you!
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the most important thing is to keep moving. keep moving!
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very true
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‘Yeah! Keep moving even if you are slow as a turtle.
Just keep moving.
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You are right.
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Love it. I have every faith you’ll do just that.I’m not much on resolutions, in kind of a spoken manner, but if I have to say, it’s just to keep on keepin’ on. I dig my life; I love my family; I’m pleased with who I am. So, I’m pretty much just gonna stay the course and give the rest up to God. I’ve found that if I do my part, He does His.
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happy new year
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