It has been almost a year since I last wrote. And some of you might already noticed that. It’s not as if I have not tried writing in the past year. I did. A lot many times. Sometimes when the inspiration stuck me hard and I felt the need to bottle it all up before it got lost. Or during the times when I was devoid of inspiration for a lot many days and I feared of what I had become. I tried countless times but never succeeded. Also then there was my excuse of the fact that I could only write on a laptop and not the good old way with pen and paper. I had given the old one to my younger brother and I hadn’t saved enough to buy a new one.
Today after many trashed attempts and a number of days I am finally writing. Today I decided to not be a coward. So I opened Ms- Word in my brand new laptop and started writing the first thing that came to my mind. I don’t know the things I am writing will see the light of the day or not. Is it worth posting it in my blog? My only aim is to write like never before. Stuff all past year emotions , ups and downs in this one page. Even this heated-mid summer- no electricity moment cannot distract me from the task I have set out to do.
I don’t consider myself an emotional person. But some people refer to me as extremely passionate. Not about everything. But only about the things I care about. I am quite sure I can count them on my one hand. Last year I got myself an earning job. Not the one you can get at every nook and corner, but the one my parents could be proud of. I shifted to other corner of the country ( from New Delhi to Chennai). Found some great people to work with, made some great friends, experienced vast cultural and linguistical differences, faced extreme heat conditions and what not. In short enjoyed whatever good or bad life threw at me. But something was missing. I could feel it everyday like a annoying wood splinter stuck in my thumb.
People around me know I have a dream. Not because they pay close attention to me, but because I keep blabbering it to them. A dream that does not consist of me being rescued by a prince on a white horse. I know I am capable of doing that myself. I dream of books and pages, alphabets and punctuations , white pages and black ink. A dream that gives me sleepless nights mostly, but some nights it lets me sleep like a baby when I am all tired out.
Most days I bury it deep down below on account of it being impossible and me being average. but some days when my spirits are soaring high I dare to peek inside and feel guilty of all the moments I have wasted, of all the times I let opportunities slip through my fingers.
Today is one such day.
As I read again what I have written, I am afraid it won’t make much sense. Except writing this has filled me to the brim with confidence.
I now know I will make my dream of books and pages a reality. There might be lows and highs, ups and downs, small successes and giving up failures but I know this
one day it will happen.
My dreams will come true.
Till then I just have to hold tight, work hard, enjoy the happenings
and never ever give up.
– Shikha
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Also read ‘ MY SECRETS UNCLAD: JUST THIS ONE’ I wrote that few days after I started blogging. Notice the difference in writing and thought process. Link down below:
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To dreams coming true
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To dreams coming true!
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Good to see you Eli. 🙂✨
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Loved the read… Thanks for liking my post and learning me to your blog Shikha… 😘
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Thanks NJ! You are most welcome here. ❣️
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Good to read ur post.. I am glad I came across and felt inspired coz for me also it’s been long since I wrote.. but now I have also started to write in tit bits
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Hey! Thanks.
It’s nice that you have started writing again. Life is good when we do things we want to do. Hope our inspiration and passion never ceases.
Much love.❣️
Shikha
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My inspiration are people like you whose wonderful words touches my heart
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Awwe.. That’s a really nice to say. Thanks! 😘😘
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It feels from 1 to this piece you’ve got a direction! Very happy for you! Keep writing! 🙂
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Thanks! All the best to you too. ❣️
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Came across your blog as you like something I posted – I made the bold commitment to myself to make a blog post once a day for the whole year – makes me keep writing consistently and diligently – I also write thoughts that I later sometimes finish so have many started entries in notes on my phone and have only used the phone to write and post from – a writer once told me to be a writer you must write so do so a little each day and your goals will soon become reality – I hope my daily posts will inspire you to keep pressing on
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‘Practice makes perfection’ overused and age old. But still true.
I love reading thoughts and views of people around me . Keeps me inspired. Thank you so much for sharing this.! I have a new perception of the things I already know.
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Hold on to your dream, Shikha. Write a sentence a day, if you must, to keep on writing. Read. Read. Read.
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I will Rosa! Thanks for dropping by and have a good day, love!
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WONDERFUL to seenyou back. I wondered what had happened to you. Sounds like a lot DID happen. All good. It is GREAT that you are writing again. I look forward to reading more. All the very very best to you ❤️
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Hey ! Thank you. How are you ?? ‘It’s been so long. I missed you guys.
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I am writing a book lol. Mind you, it will take me ages. Lovely to see you again xx
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Ooo…. A book!
Can’t wait to read it. 😘
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Yes. It might be a long time coming though lol.
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It will be worth it. ❣️
What’s it about??
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It’s the story of my battle with cancer and blindness
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Okay! Now I know it will be a best seller. Not because its about cancer and blindness, but because you are writing what you have experienced and that always comes out well. Though I truly hope you are well now??
God bless you Lorraine. Sending happy vibes your way. ❣️
(I am not sure if I remember your name correctly. Forgive me if I am wrong).
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Yes you remembered the right name. Smiles. I do hope the book will work out well. Xxxx
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welcome back! and good luck
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Thanks!!
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Hi Shikha, Happy to know you took writing again. I want to share a few things, if they aren’t interferences for you.
1. I had a writers block for exactly the same reasons a you, laptop etc. I have begun to use my phone and notepad. I just scribble some lines as and when my experience narrates them and leave it. I have realized that I may not complete something then and there, but that write-up’s time has eventually come up at an odd hour, like travelling by cab or metro or sitting idle on my bed in the night. So, this has helped me to get my touch to writing back.
2. You are in Chennai, a place I love. Please, at my request, visit the Anna Centenary Library. Please. If you can go now, please do. It is open all 7 days a week. That is an amazing place for readers and writers. You can thank me later, but just go without thinking. You will realize what I am trying to tell you.
3. Do walk by the Besant Nagar beach. Another great place that can inspire you to write. I have done that immensely. As a matter of fact, my blog got the name, SunSandSeaSandeep from this beach!
Much love and power to you. Get back to what you love dear friend.
Cheers.
SSSS!
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Hi Sandeep!
I loved reading your thoughts. First of all thank you for taking time out for writing all this. I appreciate it.
I understand what you are trying to say. Inspiration does strike at odd hours. Especially when the thing you are doing at the moment is monotonous.
I shall definitely visit Anna Centenary Library as soon as I get the time. Are you from Chennai? it seems it has a special place in your heart.
Oh! and the beach. The cold , misty air that hits your face as you close your eyes. it’s amazing. Nice name on the blog. four ‘S’ s . great.
Happy beachy waves your way,
Shikha
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I was in Chennai for 4 years. Spent 2 years in that library. Had lived close to the beach. So, I would be in the library or the beach. Now I am not in Chennai. Moved out. I miss the place Shikha. Was more than a place for me.
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That’s really nice!
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Hmm :). Do visit The Theosophical Society, if you haven’t visited yet! I am sorry, I just can’t not share these places with people. They are just beautiful spaces that I love.
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Oh! I am here more than six months and I haven’t explored much. So all ideas are welcome. :))
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:):) If you like South Indian food or even if you don’t, please eat at Murugan Idli. Try all items. Or, go as many times as possible to try them all!☺️
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I have passed twice in front of that shop but never gotten a chance to eat, since I was in a hurry. But next time, pakka. 😛
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:):)
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